Endless journey perhaps?
haih...


On the way home today, i received a msg from mommy saying grandma is in the hospital. I was huh uh? Reached home safety thanks to Jtsen. His a good driver. He made us wear seat belts even thought we're sitting right behind. Ok back to my grandma story. For the past few months she's been diagnose with Alzheimer. Hardly can walk nor talk but still she recognises us when we visit her. She will nod her head or even smile when she sees us but she's unable to speak. Judging from her appearance, i know she's happy when we visited her yet wordless. Last few years she got a stoke caused by high blood pressure. She survived from it and became weaker by days. She's on medication to make her not so grumpy after the stoke. Went operation few times and succeed. But somehow her body is not as strong as she used to. My aunt had to employed 2 maids to take care of her. She became weaker by days until now. She was hospitalise again but this time under ICU caused its very serious. What really causes it? Nobody knows? All i know is there a blood clot again in her brain of the nervous system i think. Anything that got to do operation with brain is dangerous. The risk is always there. What happened to my grandma was

There's only 2 choices to choose..


1. Perform the operation with high risk. 1% will only succeed and 99% of it, she will turn into a "vege". As in paralise there not moving but still living.

2. Not to perform the operation now. And she will only have 48hours the most to live.


I was bloody down after hearing it. Its mine first time. I hope its gonna be my last but impossible. The world is filled with life and death. Its just like ying and yang. Both must equal. Haih! i seriously dunno what to write anymore.

I went to see her just now but visiting time is over. I only managed to wispher by her ears. "PoPo Uwei was here". She seems lifeless on the bed with the breathing machine and those equipments u can get in the hospital. I know deep down in her heart she knows we were there but there was no response from her either. Her soul is there and i believe she heards us...

haih i'm really down now..
i'm goin to stop here!



Pray for her...